Letters to My Silly Baby - First Birthday

I wished for you and have wanted you since I was a child. I always new I wanted to be a mother and it took me until I was 34 to finally be in the right place in my life to bring you into this world, and even then it took 2 years and many tears for me to finally have you. Finding out I was pregnant with you was the happiest moment of my life - and the scariest. I worried about being a good mom to you. I know I've already made mistakes and will continue to do so, but I will do my best to always do what's best for you. I only hope you can forgive me for the mistakes I will inevitable make. Because as much as I try, I'm not perfect. From the moment you were conceived, you made it known that you were a very headstrong, independent person - from the way you decided to be in a breech position, to how you decided you would not sleep unless you were next to your father and I, and when you were finally ready for your own bed, you decided that as well by letting us know in your own way that you needed more space to stretch out. You have always made your wishes known to us, and I hope to be able to develop that further and help make you a strong, independent, successful young man.

You are loved more than you will ever know. From the moment you came into this world I have showered you with kisses every day just to make sure you know how loved you are, and I don't plan on stopping any time soon. I'm sure one day you will let me know you don't want moms kisses anymore, and I hope that day never comes because I truly love being able to snuggle with you and kiss your little cheeks. Those are the moments I love the most when I'm with you. I love it most when you're ready for your nap and you curl up in my arms and I get to smell your sweet little baby scent. You are now and always will be my baby, even when you are grown. You are growing up way to fast for me. Here we are on your first birthday and it seems like just yesterday that I was feeling you moving in my belly.

I love you to the moon and back my little boy.